Sunday, April 09, 2006
i feel suffocation. apparently, all seems to be peaceful but beneath it lies the destruction aftermath. the wreakage was beyond salvage. i always have the vision that the victors and onlookers are looking and pointing their fingers at me. in the very first place, i was`nt even the one and now i have to bear the consequences. i`m not creating an image to put myself in the limelight, why do i need to? however, it`s a fact that i`ve been violated. nobody can tell me it`s just a hoax because it really took place. where is my pillar of support when i really really need one? who are the ones who are really here??? people can condone the mistakes done but whoever so is going to give me an answer? an answer to every of my doubts. i want to tell the world. I FEEL SO INNOCENT. spare me please. or just let me end it all. i thought i would be okay, until i fully recover from my illness. the thoughts came flooding to me even in my dreams. i have since, lose faith in love and in people and i have to protect myself. i always think of people first, now i have to think of myself, unless he or she is worth the price.
i promised to talk to you. i'll let you know. give me abit more time. thanks.
2:38 PM
i feel suffocation. apparently, all seems to be peaceful but beneath it lies the destruction aftermath. the wreakage was beyond salvage. i always have the vision that the victors and onlookers are looking and pointing their fingers at me. in the very first place, i was`nt even the one and now i have to bear the consequences. i`m not creating an image to put myself in the limelight, why do i need to? however, it`s a fact that i`ve been violated. nobody can tell me it`s just a hoax because it really took place. where is my pillar of support when i really really need one? who are the ones who are really here??? people can condone the mistakes done but whoever so is going to give me an answer? an answer to every of my doubts. i want to tell the world. I FEEL SO INNOCENT. spare me please. or just let me end it all. i thought i would be okay, until i fully recover from my illness. the thoughts came flooding to me even in my dreams. i have since, lose faith in love and in people and i have to protect myself. i always think of people first, now i have to think of myself, unless he or she is worth the price.
i promised to talk to you. i'll let you know. give me abit more time. thanks.
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:38 PM
